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cutiesakurachan wrote at 10:56 PM 14 blossoms
Head or Heart? Heart or Head?
Jeff's already here. He's been here since the 13th and we've been hanging out weekends [Friday to Sunday] so I'm fully booked the past days. We've alot of catching up to do. 10 months worth.
Our relationship is in a precarious state right now. Lots of decisions to make. Tough ones. One of them being the "M" word. Marriage. Yup, were at that state now where we need to talk about it. Eversince it has been brought up, my head and heart are locked in a heated debate.
My heart says to go for it. Afterall, 6 years with Jeff is already a long time. I'm in no doubt that I love him and that it is him I want to spend the rest of my life with.
On the other hand, my head is disagreeing. Think of the consequences, it says. Do you really want to spend your married life always left alone for months here while he is working aboard a ship somewhere?
I've posted my predicament here before and now that Jeff's back, I've to deal with it and make a final decision. Else, I'm afraid it would put a huge crease on our almost perfect but not quite relationship.
Thing is, it's tough. I'm torn between following my heart & listening to my head.
I'm feeling torn today!
cutiesakurachan wrote at 12:07 PM spring is here
Isang Pangarap
Wait lang ha. Mangangarap lang me saglit.
Ang saya siguro kung may laptop ako na pwedeng bitbitin kahit saan. Take note, "pwedeng bitbitin kahit saan" so dapat magaan lang sya. Meron kase kami laptop pero luma na. Saksakan ng bigat sobra! Halos mamatay ako nung dalhin ko yun sa UP dati. 1 araw lang yun ha. Kaya kung magkaroon man ng chance, yung magaan na ang bibilhin ko this time around.
So anong specs & klase ng laptop? Well, hindi naman ako particular sa brand. Pero syempre since bibili narin lang ako eh dapat yung medyo astig na. Medyo lang kz sobrang mahal na yung astig na mga klase eh. I'm sure can't afford. If possible sana malaki din ang HD para marami mailagay pero I've yet to see a laptop that has an HD of more than 80 GB. Wala pa yata nun.
So aanhin ko naman ang laptop? Sa ngayon, gus2 ko syang dalhin sa office para naman may magawa ako after ko matapos workload ko for the day. Nakakatamad kase eh. Wala na magawa pag-afternoon dahil usually tapos ko na workload ko mga 1 pm palang. 4 hours pa bago matapos shift ko so sayang din yung time na itatanga ko.
I could use the laptop to do lots of things. Baka iniisip mo maglalaro lang ako ng games dun. Di po. Dami akong pwedeng gawin bukod dun.
Miss ko na maglayout and this tabs of mine is in dire need of a new one. Kita mo naman, April pa yang layout ko. Anong petsa na, hindi parin ako nagpapalit. I haven't gotten around to doing 1 eversince I've gotten a job. Lack of inspiration? Probably. Walang time? Pwede rin. Basta yun. Pwede me gumawa ng layouts ulit. Productive use of my time d ba?
Pwede rin ako magbasa ng manga o kaya manood ng anime. Pero syempre naka-earphone ako nun so as not to disturb the others. I'm sure di ako aantukin nun kse pagnasa hse ako at kaharap ko na PC ko, d nako inaantok eh. Parang charger yung PC ko eh. Nawawala agad pagod ko.
Samahan mo pa ng wireless Internet. Naku. Pagnabore pa ba naman ako nun ewan ko nalang. Imagine being able to surf, chat & download as much as you wish! Heaven na ito. Bawal kz surf sa PC sa workstations namin eh. Punta ka pa Resource para lang mag-Internet. At least if I've my own laptop tapos nakawireless Internet pa, I can go online whenever I like & do whatever I want online. Hmmm... depende pa nga pala yun. Dapat makahanap ng wireless Internet na covered ang RCBC Plaza para meron d2.
Grabe ako mangarap noh? Magkano kaya aabutin tong pangarap na to para matupad? Wala na. Baka hanggang wishful thinking lang ito.
Kala mo malalim na pangarap noh? Sensya na po. Mababaw lang ito. Tsaka nako mangangarap ng malalim pagkaya ko na. For now, eto lang muna. (^o^)v
I'm feeling hopeful today!
cutiesakurachan wrote at 08:05 PM spring is here
Milenyo
I've had experienced lots of typhoons in the past but this one left an impression on me. Milenyo deserves to be called a super typhoon. It only passed by the country 1 day but it left quite a mess not only in Metro Manila but in other provinces as well.
Thursday is the lucky day. Classes in all levels & those in the government offices have been suspended the day before. I think it's the first time that we had a warning from PAG-ASA that was dead on. I remember that whenever they suspend classes before anticipating heavy rains, it ended up being sunny the next day. So this time, they were right.
When I went to the office at around 7 am, it's already raining though not that hard yet. I still managed to get to work without getting soaked. We did the work as usual but with a heavy feeling of wanting to go home as early as we can. The winds started to pickup around 12 noon. We can literally see the wind which used to be invisible to the naked eye. Our building windows are being sprayed by water by the violent wind but from the inside of our office, I've no idea just how much the storm had raged outside. We were at the 28th floor.
Around 2:30 pm, we were granted the permission to go home. I didn't have a hard time commuting since my dad & bro came to pick me up. I did wait a long time since I didn't know they were already waiting for me to come out of the building. My dad ran out of load so he can't text me. We arrived around 6 pm at home.
It wasn't until then that I saw just how much damage the typhoon has done. We passed by roads half-blocked by big trees that toppled over & some literally pulled from their roots. At the fort, we saw 2 cars crushed by a billboard that had toppled over in a parking lot. We saw advertisements that used to be hanging at the walls of Market Market ripped & shredded. Jho told me that in Estrella, the roof of the Honda cars showroom had flown & crushed alot of vehicles that were passing by the road. I've also heard news about billboards toppled over but since we didn't have our electricity restored until now, I didn't see them which I think is a good thing. The scene might had made me cry.
The irony of it all, Milenyo came & went so fast that if it wasn't for the damages it caused, we wouldn't have known it ever was here. We were still lucky since it only stayed here for a day. I dare not think what would've happened to our country if it had gone on longer here before moving to another country.
Everything's back to normal now... I hope.
cutiesakurachan wrote at 12:15 AM 1 blossoms